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vrijdag 14 januari 2011

Chapters of life

In life you often need to leave things behind and go on, sometimes with pain, sometimes with good memories that were left behind, sometimes you don’t even notice. Like leaving your key inside and closing the door behind you. A the moment you hear that awful noise from the door locking, you realise it is too late. You will not get back inside. Some people leave their key inside consciously, because they want to close the door behind them forever. They want to take a fresh start, forget the past and be happy again. They don’t know what the future will bring but they just take the risk. Suddenly they are standing there, all by themselves, choosing a new way in life. I admire those people that are able to just go on, pulling themselves up again. I know it is not easy to start a new chapter, believe me I know that. I will give you an example: When I was young I didn’t like to read at all, like many children do. I was afraid to go to the next chapter, because I already knew Snow-white would eat a toxic apple from the ugly witch, her stepmother.  Okay no, I’m kidding you. Of course there is another reason for me knowing that much about it, but I won’t tell you. Everyone has the right to be mysterious in their own way, isn’t that right?

I’m wandering so let’s go back to the part of leaving you’re key inside and start a new chapter in life. These courageous people leave everything behind, taking good memories with them to start walking on a still unknown road. They don’t know what travelling this new road will bring them. But they take the risk. What is life without risks? It is monotonous without exciting moments, moments that give you jitters.  So there they are, walking and walking that road, while time is healing wounds. Sometimes there is a friend that accompanies them, but that friend can’t stay forever and they’ll be on their own again, just going straight forwards.

Until that special moment, their moment, the moment they’ll find that other road meant to be for these people. This road will lead them to a new door, a new chapter. Then people have 3 choices, the courageous will take the third option. Let me explain all choices that could be made. First there is the chance they’ll realise that they’re not yet ready for it, so they go on healing wounds convinced that another special moment will cross that endless road. Sometimes this also is the moment that people become afraid an go back to look after a locksmith, with as result it was all for nothing. Last but not least there is the choice that I definitely like the most. I’m proud of people that make that choice. They go find the key of this new door to start the chapter behind it.
I suppose you want to know why those people make me so proud? Well, I admire their courage because they do what they want or what they need, not caring about what other people think. In my opinion the world is full of wussies. A lot of people are having self-pity but do nothing about it, while they can, it is their own life. Sometimes you just need to take risks and have a new start. Write your own chapter for god’s sake. A book is also not written in one big part right? It is divided in chapters, happy and sad one’s and it is divided for a reason. It’s the same way in life! There are also happy and sad moments, you need to accept that some parts of life won’t last forever. You’re getting older, things are changing, you’re life changes all the time. My opinion is to always look at the bright side of life, be optimistic. You learn by trial and error, nobody is perfect, no life is perfect. Make the best from it! When my time has come, I want to look back and smile, satisfied about all the roads I’ve been walking, roads that together will form a big map full of great memories. Yes, that's how I want my life to be.

zaterdag 8 januari 2011

The reason why

De vakantie zit er weer bijna op, niet alleen de vele testen en taken komen er weer aan, ook een lange to do list vol met voorbereiding voor Amerika. Zo heb ik net een fotoalbum samen gesteld van mij, familie en vrienden dat mijn gastgezin te zien zal krijgen. Ik hoop dat ik ook gauw foto's van hen te zien krijg.

Een goede vriend vroeg me vorige keer: 'Sarah, met welke redenen ga je eigenlijk weg? Je moet gaan voor jezelf, niet omdat je weg wil van iets of iemand.' Wel waarom ik naar Amerika wil, daar kan ik pagina's lang over vertellen. Al vraag ik mezelf door zijn vraag af of ik wel om een juiste reden weg ga. Natuurlijk droom ik hier gewoonweg al lang van, maar waarom nu? Wil ik weg van die dagelijkse sleur, weg van problemen of bepaalde mensen? En ook al is dit zo, dan is het toch nog niet erg om net nu mijn droom te realiseren? Nu ben ik jong en heb ik het gewoon nodig om even weg te zijn. Wat is daar fout aan? Ik weet dat ik terug ga komen als een totaal ander persoon, of toch zeker en vast met een totaal andere visie over het leven. Dat is wat ik wil.